Fun Utah trip!

We always love going to Utah to visit my grandpa and family. There are so many things to do and places to eat!! Here are some adventures in pictures!!

Family Photos 2012

Family photos this year was quite the adventure. Besides the fact it was the windiest day of the year, Mason was not up for having his photo taken. I feel lucky Nicole was able to get the ones she did and I am grateful for her talent and patience.

Happy Birthday Mason

Mason is 2 on Sunday!! EArly post, busy weekend! Love you Mason James!

Getting organized!!

I have been going through Mason's clothes, packing up all his 18 month old outfits. Yes crying as I pack, my lil boy will be 2 in just a few short weeks. I will not say he has grown too fast...or where has the time gone. I love that he is growing, I love each stage. But as he gets older I am having a lot more fun with him! Here are some before and after pictures of his closet! Never mind the quality... I am having fun with my instagram!


Before After


Monkey sleeping

This is how I feel...

Love for my Grandma

I will always remember Feb 9 5:55 pm. I get a call from my mother, one of many throughout the day. I hesitate to answer, I don't want to hear what she has to say. This was the call I received. With tearful gasps my mother tells me she has lost her mother, my grandmother. Nothing prepares you for those words, those feelings. Wanting to be there to kiss her good bye. To thank her for the many many many glorious memories I have with her and Grandpa. My grandma was a gift to me from Heavenly Father. My mothers mom Beverly died when my mom was nine. I will never know her in this life. My Grandpa did the best thing ever, he married my Grandma Joyce and joined together 2 families and made them into one...the best that she could do. What a strong woman she was, I will go as far as saying she is FANTASTIC! Utah will never be the same for me, Gma won't be there with open arms to give me kisses and to tell me how much she missed me and loves me. I will take comfort in knowing she will be looking down on us daily. I will strive to make her proud, to remember her always. Sadly I think the ones that pass have it easy, they get to go to Heaven and be with loved ones that have passed on. Not to mention be in the presence of our Heavenly Father. It's my Grandpa that will have the hardest time, I think about him at this time and my heart breaks for him. It's not fair to lose two wives in one lifetime. I will say how lucky he was to love twice and be loved in return by many. Grandma Joyce, I love you. I love you so much, thank you for raising my mother and loving her as your own.

Happy Belated New YEAR!!

This is how Mason plays with his trucks and cars



Christmas Day!!

Love

Fashionistas!

Love baby TayTay

This is right before he got sick ;(

Reading of Christ Birth

LOVE LOVE LOVE HIM!!


Mason was very sick Christmas Eve and Day...he didn't care for much!

Loves his cousins!

I love my nieces!

Life at the Bailey household seems to always be adventurous with little Mason around. His 2nd Birthday is coming up next month, time had flown! Our Christmas was surrounded by family and friends with lots of laughs and fun!!
On a side note, I logged into my blog this morning and saw that I moderate my comments. I had no idea I had that setting. I read all of your sweet comments, they made me cry and warmed my heart at the same time. Life does go on and the pain does get less and less. Hopefully I will have a delightful update soon...PLEASE....;))

Feeding cows, Black Friday and the Christmas Tree HUNT! With a sad and hopeful ending.

My favorite time of the year is here!! With that comes food, reunions of friends and family, Christmas music, shopping and an overwhelming feeling of Gratitude and LOVE!! When we go and visit my parents Mason is lucky enough to go with Opa to feed the cows and chickens!!

Black Friday shopping!! I love love love hanging out in front of Target with my amazing sisters!! 7 hours was worth the wait!!


In the Gator


Feeding Cows

So now to the sad part that I am cautious to share because it still hurts me and I think it will for the rest of my life. At the beginning of Oct I went in for my 12 week appointment. I was so so excited to hear my sweet babies heart beat. Marc didn't come with me because it's a fast appointment, hear the heartbeat and then I am out of there! He put the heart beat thing on my tummy to hear the heartbeat. He moved up and down...all around but still couldn't hear anything but my heartbeat. I wasn't worried at all, I had a really calming feeling come over me. So we went on to do an ultra sound. This would be the 4th time I got to see my babe. I had complications at the beginning which required to see the progress of the baby. So the ultra sound was up and running, still no heart beat and no blood flow to the baby. My heart was racing, I was in disbelief. Do another ultra sound I said...that is the vaginal one...(so TMI) Same outcome. I couldn't believe it, at the time it never crossed my mind that my body would do this to me. I thought I was invincible, I don't smoke, drink or put anything harmful in my body. I just sat there not knowing what to do or how to feel. Dr Klingler was with me the whole time. I was yearning for Marc and Mason but at the same time scared to go home and tell them that our baby went back to Heavenly Father. After the Dr. talked to me and told me my options I opted for a D&C the next morning. I prayed and prayed, cried and cried and cried. I found comfort in my lil Mason, he knew something was wrong, he didn't leave my side all day. I went in reluctantly the next morning to have the babies sweet body removed. I knew the spirit moved on and had an overwhelming feeling of calmness and reassurance that I will one day be able to mother that child. Whether here on earth or in heaven above that baby will always be mine. I went to stay with my mom for 4 or 5 days. I needed time to grieve without Mason seeing me sad all the time so my mom helped me take care of him. Those days at my parents was a blessing. It has almost been two months since I found out. The pain is still there but it is bearable. The love I received from friends and family was healing to my heart and soul. I know this is personal, I never wanted to share it. But too many of my friends were due at the same time as me and they all had miscarriages around the same time. I find strength from these special women we will move on from this, knowing one day we will hold that babe. I will cherish every second I have with Mason and Marc. I have never had anything taken from me like this, or from my life period. It's humbling and reassures me that I will be reunited with all my family.
Thanks for reading and letting me share this sad and hopeful time in my life.

~~ 4 YEARS ~~ July 21, 2007

Amazing how fast time fly's when you are having fun! I never thought in a million years that I would be sealed to the wonderful man that I am sealed to today! ;) 4.5 years ago I was in Africa...single with no thoughts of getting married anytime soon. I was actually planning on staying another year out there cause I was having fun! I signed up for MySpace Jan. 6th, received a message from Katie Bailey asking me to write her brother Marc who was on a mission in Germany. Sayyyy WHAT? I have had a crush on him for soooo long. I used to think what it would be like to just talk to him...let alone date him. I literally had nothing to lose. I wrote him....he wrote back...this went on back and forth till the beg. of March. I called him in Germany when he was off his mission and playing basketball out there. I was still in Africa working...had the urge to quit...so I did. I gave up a job that was paying me over 6 figures...for a chance on love. I came home...2 weeks later I fly out to see Marc in Germany (Mid April). Stay out there for 10 days...fall in love.. I come home blissful and happppppyyyy! I get home and check my answering machine...find out I was getting deployed to Afghanistan AGAIN... noooo this can't be happening. I WANT TO SETTLE DOWN...START MY LIFE. I suck it up and have a very tearful conversation with Marc letting him know I won't be flying out again to see him in Germany and won't see him for a year. HE FLY'S HOME THE NEXT DAY!! Say WHAT :) I am a very happy girl! The time comes and I am about to deploy...bags packed and all. The day of my departure Marc is there...Sad, worried, concerned, in love. Time goes by and my 1st SGT tells me that I don't have to go...DOUBLE SAY WHAT...too many emotions at that time to really express how I was feeling! The stars really did align for us, Heavenly Father was truly blessing me and answering my prayers. May 25th he proposed at the Denver Temple and we were married July 21st. It was a fast whirlwind romance, one of the greatest rides of my life. My patience really worked out for me. I married the most patient~loving ~ hard working man that I know. Thank you Marc for being everything that you are, for loving me and our son with all that you have! To the rest of Eternity, I LOVE YOU!!


This is what we made ;)))